This is the continuation of my previous post found here.
A few weeks and an internal defibrillator later, I returned to school to pick up some make up work. In the hall I bumped into my math teacher, Rett McGowin. After exchanging pleasantries he asked an innocuous question, “Did the experience bring you closer to God?” Unnerved by the question, I do not remember the answer that I gave. For days I could not escape his query.
The subsequent summer was a difficult one. I spent my evenings coaching a baseball team that I was supposed to be a key player upon. During the day, I stayed at home by myself. The solitude allowed me to process my anger towards God. My fifteen year old brain did not understand why God gave me the ability to play a sport I love and then take it away. For days I raged at him. The turning point occurred one morning while cleaning out my desk. Buried amidst the loose papers, drawings, and scribbles, I discovered an unused devotional. A year before I’d purchased it at a Bible club meeting sponsored by Rett McGowin. As I leafed through the pages, Rett’s piercing question echoed through my head. In the middle of the book there was a page entitled Taste and See. It was a 31 day verse list for quiet times. I grabbed a nearby Bible and read a few verses, and as I did, the Holy Spirit began to work on my heart. For the first time I recognized that God had a plan for my life (Jeremiah 29:11-13). He loved me (John 3:16-17). I was a sinner (Romans 3:23). In spite of my sin sent his son Jesus to die on the cross for my sins (Romans 5:8) I realized that if I had died in the gym classroom, my eternal destination would have been hell (Romans 6:23). I understood that I now had a 2nd chance. Forgiveness for all of my sins was available (Colossians 1:21-22). All I had to do was to turn away from those sins and place my faith in Jesus Christ (Romans 10:9-10, 13). There in my bedroom kneeling on the hideous orange shag carpet, I made the greatest decision that I ever made: I trusted Jesus as my savior.
I cannot tell you what day it happened. I cannot tell you the hour. What I can say is, I have never regretted the decision I made that day. My life has not been perfect. I did not magically stopped sinning or making mistakes. I am still a work in progress, but I am thankful every day for grace unmeasurable and a relationship with Jesus, my Savior.